Finding Comfort

Lately I have been lost

Through no fault of my own

The loss of my mom

Has left me feeling alone. 

Her departure was sudden

Her departure was quick

The thought of her absence

Still makes me feel sick. 

The call that came 

Announcing her death

Strangled my thoughts

And stole my breath.

That pit in my stomach

That ache in my heart

Accentuates the pain

Now that we are apart. 

I struggle each day

With how I should feel

Sorting the memories

And how I should heal. 

Some anger exists

Some questions remain

But shouting won’t help

To ease all the pain. 

So many memories

Most happy, some sad

Fill me with gratitude 

For the time that we had. 

Her home in the country

The flowers that she grew

Will always be a symbol

Of the mother I knew. 

Her voice can be heard

In the chimes when they play

Reminding us she is close

And just a prayer away.

So I get up each morning

And go to bed each night 

Doing my my best

To do what is right.  

Her commitment to our family

The strength of her love

Gave me the life I have today

Now she watches from above.